Saturday, 17 January 2015

Things that define me...

I read ‘Things that define me’ and I am instantly in a classroom learning definitions… Define pseudonyms… Define ecosystem…
English and Science clearly were my two favourite subjects.

Second thought is that thanks to writing this, I’ll have a good write-up for the ‘About me’ section of my blog. Carrying on with the same thought, I procrastinate and I work better with deadlines. Do these two constitute what defines me? I hope not, because I am working on changing both these traits of mine.

For the last fifteen years, I have been primarily a homemaker. I use the word ‘primarily’ because I could never see myself fitting into the mould of one.

My love for books has survived all the changes in my life over the years.
Just today, a friends of my 9-year-old daughter commented, “Aunty, you always gift us books for our birthday”.
I told her that I couldn’t think of a better gift.

I don’t read as much as I used to when I didn’t have all the responsibilities. I read more than I used to five years back… work in progress.

What defines me today is my blogging. I used to write. Then I didn’t use to write. Then I started writing again.
I am more confident in my writing than I ever was.
Even today when I get a positive comment, my first instinctive thought is – ‘Is what I wrote good, or did they just say it’… that’s insecurity, but that’s something I want to hold on to.

Can there be anything that defines me?
I am happy with myself the way I am. That defines my acceptance of me.
I am and always have been a very private person. I would never have felt comfortable writing about myself and sharing it. Today I am.

The definitions change. And I am happy that they do.




2 comments:

  1. Good to read....'work in progress '.....is what is needed for all of us to reach out for a better us.

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