"Count your blessings"
I have been told this by others often in the last few months.
I tell myself this a lot more often.
When I thought about writing on this subject, many things crossed my mind - from cockroaches and rats, to health issues of my family, to the plans of future, and more.
What I zeroed in upon and wrote is that my biggest fear is the words "What worse is possible?".
A lot worse. I think the answer is a lot worse.
Since there is so much we can't control... Is there anything that we control? Is control just an illusion?...
Anyway since there is so much that we can't control, the possibilities of what can happen are unimaginable.
When something happens that one needs to mourn, being able to take time to do so is not always possible.
Life takes over - when does it not?
Problems take over and one has to sort out stuff.
The stuff can be financial responsibilities, emotional issues of others, and much more.
If things are enough under control that one can afford to let go of control on oneself and break down once in a while, it is a luxury.
At times what one is mourning is the difficulties which are the result of the loss of a loved one.
Being able to mourn the loss of the person, and not the material affairs...
It is a luxury, I believe. It is a blessing.