"Dil Dhoondta hai, phir wahi, fursat ke raat din"
(My heart yearns, once again, the leisurely nights and days)
I have always loved this song.
At one time it just meant free time - the literal meaning.
With time the meaning changed to 'me-time' - time to relax, to read, to meet friends.
Now it means a combination of these two and more.
It means the contentment of being alone... Not feeling lonely.
It means time away from negativity.
It means choosing to put myself first, sometimes.
And the possibility of wishing all of this without feeling guilty.
In that one word, 'fursat' (leisure), there are so many layers.
Things become complicated.
The good, old days of simplicity of thoughts, and the lack of worldly experience. A time when leisure could be just that - leisure.
When the possibility of there being anything more to it never crossed my mind.